Stillness

Have found my peace as I am traveling through this process, and it is just a process, a life-long process for me :)
Good, Bad, Indifferent...it just IS.
Have had the universe give guidance and signs for me to just be still. Remember who I really am, where I come from...and life is a gift. All of it. To LIVE and have the freedom of choice. To control your life via your actions, re-actions, choices, thoughts, prayers. We are all a part of The Great Spirit, God, Goddess, OM...whatever human word is attached. We are IT. We are created from that and remain that...our choices as humans determine the rest.

I am in my NOW; my home is peaceful, the kids are healthy, happy and sleeping. My husband is wonderful, asleep on the couch (not wanting to leave me alone with my insomnia :), sunburned from his wonderful rides. I'm so loved, so blessed.
I am strong in more ways than I can believe or even wrap my mind around but that has always been a struggle...believing in myself.
But now, right NOW in this moment I believe. The area of my heart, perhaps also more the area of the 3rd chakra (i think) the one at the base of where your ribs join got all jittery, anxious...fearful. That is emotion that I need to process, lies and abuse that is recorded in me that I need to re-do. Acknowledge the emotions, honor them. When this will happen...I don't know. I'm going with the Universes flow and trusting that when the time is right...it will happen.